Saturday, April 25, 2009

THIS IS WHY I WALK!!!! (Such devastating news)

***EDIT*** This morning is our walk! We are super excited, can't wait to share pictures with all of you!!!!***

First off, I need all of you to please head over to sweet Kayleigh's blog and say a prayer. I. Am. Devastated at the latest development. I don't think I will ever, ever take for granted my son (not that I did!). I don't know what to say, other than it's just not fair. It makes me angry, it makes me sad, it makes me want to cry and scream and beg and plead - why why why. I got hit hard by the death of Maddie a few weeks ago and I barely followed their blog. But Kayleigh's I have been following since June. I have spent time emailing and loving this family and so my already wounded heart is not in trouble. I can't imagine how I would be able to make the decision that this family is going to be making, I can't imagine the pain, the incredible amounts of pain they must be in, yet, somehow, I feel they have a peace, a peace that surpassing all understanding, because God's hand is over all of this.


I walk for my son, my precious son, born 11 weeks early. My precious baby who spent 69 days in the NICU and is the light of my life. I love him with my entire being and I am thankful for him and the lessons he has taught me this past year. I can't believe it's been almost a year!

And I walk for Kayleigh, sweet beautiful beautiful Kayleigh. Oh sweet baby girl, I love you, I love your family! Hang in there precious!

- I walk for Maddie, who passed away a couple of weeks ago - quite suddenly.

- I walk for Mckennah, Mikayla, Logan - just a few of Parker's preemie friends that are like family.

- I walk for all the preemies out there, just born, to be born, with their Heavenly father, striving at home.

I walk so that one day all babies will be born healthy. I walk so that research can be done so that we are able to help all babies to be born healthy.


Won't you please consider making donations to March of Dimes? Either at their site, or donate to our team, or someone else's team! There are plenty of opportunities out there!

***Father God, I come to you right now, completely heartbroken, yet hopeful. I cannot understand your ways, your plans, your decisions, but God, I believe that they are always for the best, even if not immediately evident. Lord, I pray for the Freeman Family. I pray that you will hold them in your strong hands and bring them peace. Bless them Lord and let them know they are deeply loved. Lord I pray for those who have lost a child, who have a preemie currently, who will have a preemie and who is a parent. I pray that you be with each individual situation...whatever it may be. Lord, I love you! Amen!***


Anonymous said...

This is a very beautiful and emotional post. You are a wonderful person highlighting all these sad stories.

I agree how it makes you appreciate all that you have.

Heatherlyn said...

That was a really wonderful powerful post. It's difficult to comprehend what parents go through for their children, especially when their kids don't make it. And I'm grateful for programs that you are supporting that help the kids who are still struggling to survive. And I'm so glad that your son is doing so well!