Wednesday, October 13, 2010

A Buffet For You

This is going to be a bit of a buffet of topics type of post...I have a lot swirling in my head and kinda just need to get out.

Motivation/Follow Through
So one thing that annoys me about myself is that I get really motivated to do things and then just stop in the middle of what ever it was. Some examples:
 - Weight Watchers - Ok so actually this time I am still doing it, but the first time I tried, I gave up. This was about 4 ish years ago....I was doing well and then decided I couldn't take it anymore. This time, I am still doing it, but lacking the motivation to be really "on" with it. Oh I still count points, but in the beginning I was dropping some good numbers, now it's been no more than one a week - I think that's because I am not putting in the work out time as well as for a while, I wasn't keeping good track of my points. But I have a new sense of fire and am doing my best to hit this head on.
 - Reading - I have about 10 books I have started reading and made it through the first 3-4 chapters - enough said there.
 - Tot School - I have everything I need to do it with PArker, I am just not in the "mood" to put in the time it takes to do it with Parker...

Those are just a few examples. Anyway, it irritates me that I do this and I don't know how to break this habit.

"That" Topic/Situation
Do you ever get to a point where you are sick of talking about, having to answer about, or hear about a certain topic or situation. It can be anything - from personal stuff to social media. I am at that point with a few different areas in life. I just don't want to hear about Lindsay Lohan any more. The girl needs help and media is not helping her at all. I also am tired of hearing about all that celebrity divorces. I am sick of talking about certain things too. If someone asks me one more time when there will be another baby Northern, I might cry or scream. Here's my answer on that. We are fine with one at this point. Parker as been a blessing to us and with his continued speech therapy and weight stuff, right now, I want my focus to be on him and how I can help him. I am not ready for another, I still need to work through the emotions and fear of have regarding his birth and the NICU. When we are ready we will start trying, but for now, I am going to enjoy my little man. There are other topics too, that I just get so sick of talking about or hearing about...though at this particular moment, none are coming to mind...

Following God
Drew and I are praying through some decisions and life things. Nothing serious - more direction and where God wants us. We are trying to just figure out where we want to be next year, 5 years from now, and so on. We want to do what is best for us and follow God's direction. It's hard and scary because so much is uncertain, but we are at a place where we need to look at our future (preschool, more kids, work, housing, ect.) and really see what lies ahead.

Money Trees - Or Lack there Of.
Some day, I am going to create a tree that grows money...or not. Anyways, can I tell you how much I hate not having money...we get by fine, but we definitely live pretty much pay check to pay check. It can be challenging. Living on a budget can be quite challenging, but nevertheless, I am thankful that we always have the money to pay bills and that we are able to provide food to Parker and all the basic necessities of life.

So that's what's on my mind. Sorry this isn't a more uplifting post...

1 comment:

Carrie said...

I have been SO unmotivated about tot school recently, too - it's weird because I'm usually so motivated about it, but unmotivated to clean - lately I've felt more like cleaning than doing Tot School which is just SO weird!!!