Before and After

People warned me, but I never thought it would be this bad...what was the warning you ask: well mainly it had to do with having a baby and how things would change and be different. I knew it would be different, but I never knew it would be this different!

Before Parker:
- I could stand in the shower as long as I wanted and just be and breathe.
After Parker:
- Shower, what's a shower? You mean, I am actually allowed to get wet and clean myself without wiping down with one of parker's wipes! (no worries, I actually do shower...most of the time...I am not gross!)

Before Parker:
- I dressed nicely and work fun clothes and necklaces and earrings. Did my hair, looked pretty darn cute!
After Parker:
- Oh pj's how I love you! Oh t-shirts, how sorry I am that you often smell of baby puke and are wet. And hair, how miss straightening you and you looking so lovely...

Before Parker:
- I could sleep in some (if I weren't at work that is) or sleep all day.
After Parker:
- I miss sleep, I miss quiet and I miss not having to wake up at 6am to feed a hungry child.

Before Parker:
- I could go out anytime I want to get out of the house.
After Parker:
- Now it requires packing the diaper bag, which includes triple checking that I have enough diapers, making sure to pack a bottle or two, then of course I have to get parker in clothes and get him in his seat, while he screams most of the time, then I have to buckle him, all while he is wiggling and giving me this look of, Oh no mom, not again. Of course then there is making sure I have the shade down and a blanket over him, lug him down the stairs with a diaper bag and a purse (one of these days I will combine both!) and then set him down, lock the door. Walk to the car, fight with the diaper bag which is currently falling off my shoulder and cutting off circulation to my arm, get Parker in buckled in, laugh with him at his monkey mirror, double check that I can reach is paci if he starts crying. Get in the car....and by now, I just want to go up stairs and sit back down!

Before Parker:
- I could eat a nice warm meal.
After Parker:
- There is nothing like soggy buns, or fries, or salad. Or hard bread, or over cooked soup, burnt cold chicken...I am convinced that he is out to make me not eat!

Before Parker:
- Drew and I could sit on the couch and cuddle and talk and relax and kiss and be intimate.
After Parker:
- Ha, intimacy, out the window, cuddle time, 5 minutes before we both crash in bed after a long day of work for him and baby for me, kiss, sure we kiss, nothing like we used to, relax, haha, relaxing, too funny!

I have no private time now. And even when Parker is asleep I do get things done, but not a whole lot because Parker seems to always wake up when I am right in the middle of it!

You know what though, for all the things I miss, it is completely worth it. I adore my little miracle, I love him so much and I would never trade in being a mommy! It is so worth it.

On a completely random note: I am wanting to start actually cooking with wine when a recipe calls for it, but I never drink it (I hate it yucky!) and I should say, I know I don't mind eating it if it's in food because I have had many a meal at olive garden that has wine sauce! Anyways...what should I buy? I know nothing about wines...dry, white, red, yellow, blue....any suggestions?