Thursday, October 7, 2010

Discouraged/Encouraged - Confused?!

It's a weird place to be encouraged and discouraged at the same time. Part of me is so bummed and feeling horrible and the other part of me is thankful and glad...

Parker met with his Speech Therapist, Early Intervention Teacher, and HMG Service Coordinator today. Parker's speech is behind again. Now that he is 2, they can't adjust for his developmental age. I am discouraged because I have been working so hard and thought he was doing well, yet I am encouraged because it could mean that next year he would be in a special needs preschool which would be free to us. That's huge. I really want to put Parker in preschool, but it's pretty flippin' expensive.

I am torn because he has to qualify for this preschool so part of me wants him to stay behind and part of me wants him to not....it's kind of a double edged sword.

I just have to keep repeating - I am a good mom...

2 comments:

Jessica Brown said...

you ARE a good mom! i'm sure of it.

also, a good friend of mine here in c-bus has a son who has a speech delay, too. he's at sutter park now, but i know the preschool decision, as well as all kinds of other decisions about therapy, early intervention, etc. wasn't an easy one for them. you probably already have a support group of parents with kids that have similar needs, but if you ever feel like you want to talk with someone who totally understands the world of speech delays, i'm happy to put you in touch!

Carrie said...

Aw, so hard!!! You are a good mom, though - just the fact that you're working with him and you obviously love him so much show that - don't let the fact that he has some 'delays' discourage you from knowing that you're doing a good job mothering Parker!!! I am praying for you and I know God will answer your preschool questions in His perfect timing! :)