Monday, March 9, 2009

This New Life

It is so funny to me how much my life has changed in the past several weeks - one incident changed so many things, but all for the better - if you ask me. It all started on Valentines Day - since then, I have become happier in a way. Drew and I have NEVER been closer and I am in a much better place mentally. I want go into details as to what happened...mainly because it's a long story and not something I care to share publicly.

Part of the fall out of the incident is that I left my play group - something, honestly, I had planned to do for a while. I wasn't really happy in it anymore and Parker and I really couldn't go to half the things plus I felt like it was becoming kind, I don't know, I just didn't feel happy or wanted there...and I am glad to have left. I am able to concentrate on my marriage and my child.

I miss being able to do things with others, but I am sure that will still happen as I have friends that I am much closer too and I am getting a lot more active in March of Dimes and am sure I will meet some others that way.

I, also, have come to a point where I can say, that if I never had another child of my own, I would feel fulfilled. I never thought I would say that about just one kid, but I am. I have no desire to be pregnant again for a long time - if ever- and I am ok with that. I am happy with Parker, I have a miracle and a baby that I am deeply connected to!

My life feels - better, happier - more fulfilled. I am finding my niche and I love that!

God is truly blessing me and I am so thankful for him.


Heatherlyn said...

It's really nice to feel at peace with life. :)

Sometimes it's ironic that upsetting things actually trigger the right path for us to be on in life.

Plus, you know, the amount of children we have is completely personal. 1 or 10. Whatever. :) It's good that you aren't pushing yourself into anything that you really don't want.

Marla Taviano said...

Love this upbeat post, Denise! I waved to you at church Sunday, but I don't think you saw me. You were going into the bathroom, and I was out in the hallway with the 2-year-olds. :) Love your hair!

Carrie said...

Oh, Denise, I'm SO glad you're doing so well. I'm so happy to hear that God is growing you & your marriage & all your desires, too. That's wonderful.

Do you have a MOPS in your area? I find it more relaxed & structured than the playgroup at my church, and I like it better. My playgroup sometimes is awkward b/c everyone else was already friends before I came, and their kids are older, etc...but MOPS is a bigger group - all ages of moms & kids...and they have childcare! I LOVE it! :)