Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Momma Don't Preach...

I don't even know what to write. I am choosing to distance myself from a situation that has sucked me in and started ruling my mind. I am mad at myself for getting sucked in, I am angry that I chose to stare at the computer all day - I am moving on...moving past it...life goes on...na na na na - life goes on!


So, about this being a mom thing - have you ever wanted to just quit. Just pack a bag and take off for an hour and breath? I am kind of at that point (AND NO I WOULD NEVER LEAVE P alone!). Parker has been a challenge as of late. I think my doctor thinks I am nuts for the call I made to them yesterday...

See Parker has been waking up every night for the past week at about the same time screaming. Normally I would just let him cry it out. But this scream is a blood curdling, "I am in pain, someone wants to kill me scream". He does it for 10-15 minutes and finally calms down, I let him have a bit of bottle and put him back down! All better. So I decided to call the doctor and ask them what to do. Their response - you're doing all you can and should do - REALLY? that's your wonderful doctor studied-for-a-million-years medical advice. They basically said it could be teeth, gas, growth spurt, but it's obviously not something they can go in and test with blood tests. Well that's good!

I also asked them about his eating problems. He won't eat anything except his bottle. So much for that cheese I bought! Actually, today has been better - he ate really well and again the dr. said I was doing everything right and that it's a toddler thing. Nice.

And again I ask, where the heck did I put P's owner's manuel? It had to have been misplaced somewhere - right?

Kids are complicated.

And also, why don't people tell you that toddlers are a challenge. My mom never gave me any great advice. I should have known that I would be challenged daily, frustrated, ready to pull my hair out daily. But NOOOOO, I think it's gonna be all sugar plums and perfectness that Parker will be the exception and be the perfect child that can talk by 2 months and do everything on his own by now. Ha! Totally not true.

Man, this mom thing is hard!


Carrie said...

Oh, dear. This is SO true. :) I felt the SAME way when Z was Parker's age - he still can be a picky eater & if he doesn't like what I put in front of him, he just looks at it & says, "all done". :)

The night waking thing is SO hard, but, yeah, I don't know...that pain scream is so hard. :( Have you been giving him Tylenol before bed? I would try not to give him a bottle at night, unless that's the only thing that will calm him - because then he'll keep waking to get the bottle. Z did that at 5:30 am when he was nursing, up until I weaned him at 12 1/2 months, and now he sleeps fine.

And, yeah, ALL of us have had moments & days & sometimes a week or two where we just want to leave...sometimes now that I'm expecting again (don't get me wrong, I'm excited, but...) it just all stretches before me, like, wow, how many YEARS before I'm out of the baby stage??? :) Don't feel guilty for feeling that - you should've heard the sigh I let out after putting Z down for ni-night tonight - and today was a really GOOD day!!!! :) Praying for you! :)

Lori said...

Amen. Being a mommy- especially a stay at home mom- is hard work! My DD has been having a rough 3 weeks. It's not so fun. Sorry you're going through tough times, too.

-Lori @http://www.thetowells.com