Aloha Friday - Week Recap

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Welp, this week has been insane - to say the least. Today is truly the first date that I have sat down and done nothing. My busy week started Monday and continued on through yesterday. It was a long week, but I am thankful that so much has been accomplished. Of all the things that have happened this week - two things stick out in my mind that happened - neither of which I had planned and both just make me sigh and say, "Some people DON'T get it."

1) I got a new car - a 2010 Kia Soul, it's a new model and so you don't see a lot of them out (though I think I see them more now that I know what I am looking for). I had to run errands the other day and was sitting at a stop light in my pretty new car. Someone was turning onto the road I was on. It was a redish/pink car - I don't know how to describe it, but to me, it seemed rather girly.

There are two young early 20 men boys in the car.

They make it a point to slow down and yell out their window - "Your car is so gay!" My window is down so I just look at them and smile. In my head - though - I am thinking, "Well man, now that I know YOUR the authority on good cars, I'll make sure that the next time I buy a car I will consult you, wouldn't want a gay car would I?" Really, it just makes me wonder why some people are the way they are. It annoys me that people feel the need to be so rude and rather pathetic.

But the same day...

2) I am at Meijer getting some groceries and I buy like 10 things and go through the self check out. Anyways, I am almost done - I have like 3 things left to scan and this couple comes up behind me and is just STARING at me, watching me, acting as if I am not being fast enough or something. They are huffing and sighing like they are in a big rush (might I point out that there are other u-scans open at the time - all of them except 2 are open and not being used.) I scan my coupon and pay. I grab all the coupons that come out and head down to the end and start bagging. The lady starts scanning her stuff...all of it coming down and hitting mine. She looks at her husband and says, "Bob (I think that was his name), will you go down there and stop our stuff since the lady is STILL bagging." He comes down and gives me this dirty look (I am done at this point) and looks at me like I've been this slow human being....I walk off and here her say, "God, I can't understand why people are so d*** slow." I just let if go - but again, I am left wondering why people are so rude and inconsiderate. I wasn't being slow at all and she was the one that was practically throwing her stuff down at me.

So, this makes me wonder:

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MOMENT WHERE SOMEONE JUST MADE YOU THINK, "Some people!"?

Our Test Drive Adventure

So today we finally had the chance to test drive the cars we've been interested in purchasing.
1) Kia Soul


2) Nissan Verse!


We really enjoyed test driving the Soul - I even opened up the sun roof - which we won't be getting on our car because we can't afford! But Now I can say I have driven a car with a sunroof! It handles so well, and it's nice and roomy and not nearly as ugly as the element or the cube (have you seen that thing - UGLY with a capital EWWWW!) Anyways, we went and had the proposal drawn up and then came the hard sell. Honestly, we didn't have money for the down payment to hold the dang thing, so there was no use and pushing it. That sorta left a bad taste in our mouth (just because we were honest coming in saying hey, we are not looking to do anything but test drive...deal with it dude!) We love the Kia Soul though - and we love the green and it's really what we plan to get...but we had one more to look at - it had to blow us away and blow the soul out of the water in order for us to say we would get it over the Soul.

We left and headed to Nissan to test drive a Versa. CUTE CAR - seriously, so cute with great safety features (which they both have btw!). We had a great guy there - so funny, so kind, our age - totally far from pushy! :) We did our drive - the thing handles like butter I tell ya! Mmmmm....buttered potatoes - oops, I digress. So here's the best part, Drew is heading back to the dealership. We've driven this car all over and we are like two lights away from our turn, we get pulled over - WHILE TEST DRIVING! Turns out, the dealer tag wasn't on it - which I swear it was when we left, I really remember seeing it, but maybe I am losing my mind! They left us off with a warning - it was so funny. We got back and chatted with the guy a little and then left.

I was sold on the Versa - (only because I was dumb and hadn't asked for an overview of the security features of the soul). But when I got home I called Kia (a different one then where we were) and talked to them about it - and well, it is what we want. It makes me happy and I will feel VERY safe lugging the kid around in it!

So we plan to get a soul hopefully this weekend! I can't wait to get rid of the annoying bonneville. Oh and before I forget - we do NOT qualify for the Cash for Clunkers! Although if you asked me, we should, because the Bonneville is a PIECE OF JUNK!!!! But nooooooooooooooo - its based on gas mileage!

So that was our day! How was yours?

My Weekend Review!

Well hello there. First of all, to all who left me encouragement yesterday, THANK YOU! Stupid satan is like a virus and he made me sick yesterday - but today, I am better. I think I need a little more meds to knock the satan virus, but I feel a ton better. I want to say that I know my friends love me for me and are not my friends out of obligation - and I love them too, so very much! :)

Moving on...

This past weekend was BUSY! Thursday, my in laws got in town and we were able to relax and eat some KFC and just chill!

Friday was busy - we got up and headed to the zoo. It was so fun and cool, which was nice! We took a lot of pictures (all are still on the camera - as I am bad a dumping it!) I even got some fun pictures of the tigers. If you know anything about the Columbus Zoo, you know that the tiger exhibit has a big glass wall so when the tigers walk by, it's like you can touch them. Tigers are so beautiful! Parker liked watching them and touching the goats and watching the geese! We packed a lunch and enjoyed that. I yelled at two kids throwing rocks at a goose - no parents in site, so I said something! I can't stand when parents don't control their kids. Ugh - Parker helped me feed the lorikeets - he loved it!

After the zoo we came home and slept. We were all very very tired! After the nap we headed out to Marcella's up near Polaris. Friday was my mother in laws birthday, so we took her there. I got my gnocchi Bolognese (gnocchi with lamb basically!). After we got some cheesecake at the cheesecake factory, came home and played games. I kicked everyone's booty in Life - oh yah, I started as an artist with 10,000 to my name and 60,000 in loans. I ended with 1.5 million as a doctor. Too bad it's not real life! :) I think my favorite thing was my father in law - he didn't go to college, became an athlete, was beating us all in money, had a mobile home and then had a midlife crisis and lost most his money! Oh Pete, you make me smile :) We watched Red, White and Boom on TV.

Saturday was so much fun. We met Tabatha and Logan down in Hilliard for the Hilliard 4th of July Parade. it was a fun parade. The boys seemed to like it a lot and it was fun to feel like a big family with Tabatha and Logan, because honestly, they may as well be our family! The parade was long and fun and I got to pet a beautiful dog! By the end though, Parker and Logan were tuckered out, so we headed home and rested, Drew and his dad went and saw transformers and mom and I stayed home. I made a flag cake and watched Clean House (I am not addicted to the show!) I made Ham and Cheese Veggie Lasagna and we had fun just staying in that night.

Sunday - oh sunday. I was in charge of Kids Ministry. I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off. Church was good, the whole 20 minutes I was actually in service that is, and I think for the most part, Kid's stuff went well. Both Amber and Cindy (the director and sunday manager) were gone. Being that I used to be heavily involved, I stepped in. It was hard because our normal classrooms were blocked off because of resurfacing, so we ended up scattered around. I had to make some executive decisions and make sure it was all going ok. I certainly am glad I don't do it all the time, but I did my best!

After church, we went out to eat with Mom and Dad and they headed back to Buffalo, we came home and did nothing all day!

Tomorrow - some pictures!

Where'd I put that manual?

I think I lost my Parker instructions - darn it.

I don't know what to do right now with him.

Yes, he is a year, but when telling him no and expecting him to listen and understand, is he thinking like a 1 year old or a 10 month old.

How the heck do I discipline him?

I am so frustrated, I don't know what to do, what I am doing and I just want to cry.

And on top of all of this, I am realizing I should probably not have asked my doctor to ween me off of my anti-depressant. My mood has totally stunk lately, I am losing patience and want to cry and scream. I am calling her back on Monday and seeing what she suggests.

I don't know, I just feel so frustrated, Parker is older and there for in the toddler, get into everything stage. I am feeling totally burdened and attacked by Satan. I so want to just cry!

I feel so stuck, confused, alone and on top of it all, I doubt myself, as a friend, wife and mother.

HELP ME!

Tidbits - Lots of Randomness

It's been a while since I have actually put in a decent update of a blog. I don't know how decent this will be, but I will share with you some of the things that are going on.

- Taking precautions: I have heard too much lately about pictures being stolen and used on other blogs or in other areas of the country/world. I have decided to start watermarking all pictures I put on here. Last thing I need is someone passing off my son as theirs. I am hoping to also make this blog look a lot nicer, someday when I get money, I want to get a layout made as well as a button and such. But alas - I have no money - or at least not enough to have a decent background made, so I wait.

- Ouch: So yesterday I am getting out of the shower, I am rushing and slip and fall, hit my back on the tub and come down hard on my tailbone - needless to say I have been in PAIN!

- So our apartment complex was being repaved last week - and they still ARE NOT DONE! I mean seriously! The paving itself is done, however - they haven't lined the area by my building...and we don't know when they will and it's sectioned off - can you say annoying.

- I went to garage sales on Saturday and I was horribly disappointed. They were in these two HUGE neighborhoods that are near my apartments. Well the one, I was like, oooh, young families, lots of stuff - WRONG. Only maybe 1/4 or less of the houses were actually selling anything. I did, however, find 2 Melissa and Doug puzzles and a purse at one and they were each a dollar a piece! After that neighborhood Parker and I headed to another - where we met up with Tabatha and Logan. Logan is Parker's NICU buddy - born the same day and same gestation. We were able to score some clothes for Parker and Logan, but other than that, Nadda. Oh and for people who have one - I will not go to a garage sale if you are standing outside smoking by all the stuff you are selling. Last thing I need is my stuff to smell like smoke. So just a suggestion - maybe go behind your house or in it - especially if you have other people helping. Also, if you are selling posters of mostly naked women - I will not be purchasing from you!

- Today, Drew and I had a date day. We got up and rearranged our living room again. I like the set up, but need to finish getting stuff moved to other places. My house is a mess - which is annoying. After that, we dropped Parker off at our friends and Drew and I went to see Night at the Museum 2 - I looooooved it. So much better than the first if you ask me! It was nice to have that time with Parker.

- I should note, I do not at all appreciate know-it-alls. (I REALLY wanted to go off on someone last night for being rude and acting like a know it all. It annoyed me!)

- Hmmmm - I think that is all I have for today! Have a good one and be blessed!

Writer's Workshop: A Letter...

A Letter:

Dearest Apartment Neighbors,

I would like to kindly remind you that you live in an APARTMENT community, therefore you will have to share a wall, parking, and other things with others. Since you are sharing, I'd like to remind you to do it respectfully and kindly.

To the neighbor who finds it necessary to slam your door EVERY TIME you enter and exit your home - please stop. I get that sometimes the wind will catch it and blow, but not every day! Did you ever think that maybe it causes things to fall of walls? Or, perhaps that your neighbor might have a headache and not want to deal with your slamming of the door? Do you not understand the word considerate?

To that same neighbor who seems to think she owns the first two closest spots, um, you don't. Now if there was say, assigned parking, then yes, you would have the right to park there, but I don't find it the least bit fair that you leave a car you never drive parked in the closest spot and when you do decide to move it, that you then proceed to park your other car there as well. It's not that I want the spot, it's just rather petty and annoying that you find it necessary to act as if you own the dang spot. Again - CONSIDERATE?

Oh and to you neighbor that has fights at 3 am out in the parking lot..get some counseling or something, yeesh. It's really annoying. Also, the language...really, do you realize that you live in a complex that has a lot of little kids? I certainly don't need my child hearing that language you use. Even if it is 3 am.

I just don't understand why when you are living in an apartment community you don't understand that you should be considerate and respect your other fellow apartment dwellers. It would be nice to not have to write this letter again!

Your Neighbor,
Denise




Today's prompts:

1.) Describe something someone has done to make you feel special.

2.)Name your current addiction...we can get through this together.

3.) What have you been busy doing that's keeping you from updating your blog? How hard is it for you to get back into the swing of blogging when you take time off?

4.) Write a letter.

5.) Where would you like to be?

Head over to mamakats site and take your turn!

Merry Maid - Where Art Thou?

I am going to be honest here for a moment. I want to confess to you, my readers, something that you should know about me. It may be quite surprising, so hopefully you are sitting down.

I HATE HOUSEWORK!

I see you there, gasping for air in shock and awe. Well darn it, its the truth.

I hate dishes, mopping, sweeping, dusting, vacuuming, wiping things down, taking time to clean...bleck. Oh and I especially hate the bathrooms and laundry.

So where, may I ask is my merry maid? I think I deserve one...I think all of us at some point deserves one. I am a stay at home mom of a little stinker (good stinker, but stinker none the less).

And the cleaning has gotten worse - that mushed up animal crackers in the rug, the cherrios I step on all the time, and that melted cheese cube I missed that got in the corner. Yup, I have a baby that gets most food on the floor and than in his mouth. Someone tell me they start to get it in the mouth eventually. (then again, I still can't always make it in my mouth.)

The one thing I do love - cooking. I could cook all day. And bake, I love to cook and bake and make things with food. And I am getting more adventurous with my cooking. I even made pork roast recently. PORK ROAST - ME? What! Oh yah, I am like the poor girls Racheal Ray! Actually, I love Paula Deen and I agree - it's better with butter! :) So if you ever want to come over for dinner, let me know.

But when it comes back to the rest of home things - just call me a maid and let me go out and come back to a spotless home! Now, don't get me wrong, I do clean - if I didn't do some cleaning I'd lose what's left of my mind! Seriously, I would!

Anyways, now that I have complained about my issues - I am off to clean! You know why? Because I see you there, staring at me as if I am a big girl and can clean! Fine, I will stop with the guilt already!

Momma Don't Preach...

I don't even know what to write. I am choosing to distance myself from a situation that has sucked me in and started ruling my mind. I am mad at myself for getting sucked in, I am angry that I chose to stare at the computer all day - I am moving on...moving past it...life goes on...na na na na - life goes on!

MOVING RIGHT ALONG

So, about this being a mom thing - have you ever wanted to just quit. Just pack a bag and take off for an hour and breath? I am kind of at that point (AND NO I WOULD NEVER LEAVE P alone!). Parker has been a challenge as of late. I think my doctor thinks I am nuts for the call I made to them yesterday...

See Parker has been waking up every night for the past week at about the same time screaming. Normally I would just let him cry it out. But this scream is a blood curdling, "I am in pain, someone wants to kill me scream". He does it for 10-15 minutes and finally calms down, I let him have a bit of bottle and put him back down! All better. So I decided to call the doctor and ask them what to do. Their response - you're doing all you can and should do - REALLY? that's your wonderful doctor studied-for-a-million-years medical advice. They basically said it could be teeth, gas, growth spurt, but it's obviously not something they can go in and test with blood tests. Well that's good!

I also asked them about his eating problems. He won't eat anything except his bottle. So much for that cheese I bought! Actually, today has been better - he ate really well and again the dr. said I was doing everything right and that it's a toddler thing. Nice.

And again I ask, where the heck did I put P's owner's manuel? It had to have been misplaced somewhere - right?

Kids are complicated.

And also, why don't people tell you that toddlers are a challenge. My mom never gave me any great advice. I should have known that I would be challenged daily, frustrated, ready to pull my hair out daily. But NOOOOO, I think it's gonna be all sugar plums and perfectness that Parker will be the exception and be the perfect child that can talk by 2 months and do everything on his own by now. Ha! Totally not true.

Man, this mom thing is hard!

Please don't go...

As most of you know, or maybe not, we live in an apartment. Our hope is that by doing this we will save money and be able to get a house and not stress over the money part. Anyways, I love our apartment - it has a lot of young families in it, unlike our last one we are not the minority. It's in a great part of town, very quiet - our back yard is a wetlands, our neighbors are a golf course and a church. There are nice condo's and a neighborhood across the street...it's an ideal local. So what is the problem you ask?

The problem is that a lot of neighbors with young kids are leaving and moving out. There isn't anything wrong with that persay - the problem is, annoying people keep moving in. Our once quiet area is becoming a little louder. Again - not that that's a huge problem, but when you already have neighbors that share your wall and they scream, yell and slam doors at all hours, yah not fun.

It's sad to me that now that it's summer and Parker can actually be out, all those neighbors that had kids his age are leaving and being replaced by people who seem to not understand they are living at an apartment and some level of respect for others should be made.

I am really praying right now that God brings some more newer younger families in to these empty apartments so that we can connect with them. It's hard to connect with someone and then a few months later, they are gone. Makes me sad.

Maybe I am over reacting or over stressing, but I want Parker to have friends that he can (eventually) just go out and play with.

I will say that most of our neighbors, even though they may not have kids, are great. Though we don't know them all, we enjoy saying hi to them on occasion and being able to just walk around our complex. It's the few that seem to think this is a place to be as loud as you want bother me. There are just some people who really shouldn't live in apartments.

It just bums me out. Oh well, I know God is good and will give us friends here that we can get to know. It's just a matter of when!

Getting really upset.

I seriously don't get it...I don't get people today.

i do not understand where people get off coming to people's personal blogs and putting them down, criticizing them, treating them like crap.

I do not understand how you can take a picture of a sweet miracle child and put horns on the picture saying she is the devil child.

I do not understand how insensitive people can be towards a family who's daughter is fighting for her life.

You were not FORCED to read their blog. If you didn't like it, you shouldn't have kept reading it. Now, thanks to your heartlessness and just plain rudeness a family I have been praying for for months, is possibly closing down their blog. Does this make you small minded, mean hearted people feel better? That your words and actions have caused pain to a family and to their friends who care about them. What, do you enjoy doing this.

It isn't the first time it's happened to blog friends, or myself.

If you don't want to hear what someone has to say, don't put in that effort to read a blog.

I pray that you will see the pain you have caused and be forever regretful.

I am so sick of negative commenters on blogs and people who put others down. I just don't get it.

The End.

I am so ticked, angry, sad - add more words here.

As a preemie parent, I do my best to follow other preemie blogs to not only have some support, but to give support and see that it is ok and no matter what, things will be ok. I started following a blog about a little boy who was a the same weight as Parker when he was born and then the mother introduced me to another blog. The little girl, Dakota was a 29 weeker just like my Parker and so I began to follow the story. It was great to read all the positive things that would happen to the little girl. She is beautiful beyond words and I really fell for her.

Today, I went to the site to check up on little D. and it was blocked, odd I thought. But then again, the mom hadn't updated since last week. Oh well...

Then I began talking with my friend K (the mom that introduced me to the blog) and she told me what happened and my mouth dropped open, I am still pretty sure that I haven't found my chin yet.

I am DEVASTATED AND ANGRY AND SAD!

Read why here.

The only words I have is WOW, HOW, WHY and poor D.

I am so angry...but I am praying for the family, because I just can't do anything else!

Doctors, Parties, Work-outs, oh my!

I am being a bad blogger - shame on me for not updating more! However, life has been a little bit busy and hectic and so therefore I haven't had time to sit down and just be and talk. Until now. I am making myself sit down and relax today because I have been on the go for what seems like forever! I need to take today to sit and relax and enjoy some down town with my big 1 year old. Part of that is getting to you an update of the past few days. Obviously you know Parker turned 1 on May 29th, but I didn't get to share with you about his 12 month check up and I certainly did not get to share with you the details of his party. So away we go...

Friday with when Parker turned 1. I think I am still in disbelief that my baby is 1! I sometimes feel like I have to pinch myself to make sure I am not imagining it or even to feel like it's real. (And yes, I did pinch myself that morning. Parker went in for his 1 year check up and it went well. He was 14lbs 15ozs (so I am just saying he was 15lbs.) and he was 27 in. long! Big boy! The doctor said Parker is looking great and doing well. He is allowed to eat pretty much anything now and he will remain on formula until he's 15 months to help get more calories in him. I am actually getting frustrated because he doesn't seem to care for most table food. Which is frustrating especially when the doctor says he needs 3 meals a day plus his bottles. I feel like I am never going to get him to eat "real" food. Don't get my wrong, he loves most baby food...but like, I want him to have eggs or cheese or something like that and he looks at me like I am nuts for offering it to him. I keep thinking, what if he NEVER eats anything but the formula and baby food. He can't have milk yet - not because of allergies, but because for him it is important to get the calories and nutrients from the formula and the milk would take place of that. He can have watered down juice, but not as a substitute for the formula. I am pretty sure this all frustrates me most because if by age 2 he hasn't caught up with his actual age, he will need to see an endocrinologist and possibly get some growth hormones.

Other than his dr. appointment friday was spent decorating cupcakes and pulling together the last of the needs for his party! Parker's party was on saturday and it was elmo world themed. It was a big hit and we had a lot of friends and family there. The kids made a craft (their own dorothy.) and they were allowed to color on the table cloths, which went over great! The kids loved it and I think the adults did too! Parker got a lot of great gifts, which he loves to play with. He did get to try cake but was too busy playing with the frosting and smearing it on his face to actually eat anything. But it was cute none the less. After the party we came home and my family came back with us and hung out for a few hours. We played at least an hours worth of Taboo, which with my family is fun! After they left, I got ready and headed to Buca Di Beppo for mom's night out. So much fun!

Not much has happened between Sat. and today. I did join a stroller fit type group though. It's called Mommies and Munchkins. It was started in Columbus by a woman who just moved here from Indiana. She has started one there too and it was thriving. Slowly but surely this one is growing. It is a lot of fun. You walk and exercise, but you stop and you do things with your kiddos to help them get some exercise too. It's Christ based, so there is a memory verse and rhymes to go along with some of the stretching. The best part about it is that it's free. I loved it, you can go at your own pace. You choose your level of fitness. I pushed myself and I am feeling the pain of that today, but I am so glad that I have found something like this. I have been wanting to get into something like this, but didn't know where to begin! We meet every tues and thursday at various parks in the area.

Not really sure what else to talk about. I guess just pray for the frustrations I am feeling over feeding Parker. And also, pray that he starts sleeping better. For the past few nights at about 12:30 he wakes up SCREAMING and crying. I think it might be because he is getting another tooth, but it's frustrating for mommy and daddy!

Thanks friends.

10 Things I Hate about you I am sick of.

In an effort to make my brain stop suffering, I give you 10 things I am sick of (in no particular order - or well, maybe an order).

1) Jon and Kate + 8 Affair/Money Grubbing/Open Marriage Controversy...



Here's my thoughts, whether it happened or not - I don't know, we may never know the full truth, but at some point you have to look at yourself and look at how you are acting and responding to said controversy and step back and start focusing on healing things and how important the kids are. No - I am not a fan of divorce and I think that most problems can be solved if you and your significant other are willing and wanting to solve them. Personally, I do believe there was an affair - however, I don't believe that Kate would offer Jon an open marriage out. I do feel like they are mostly in it for the money now. I just feel like the years show how things have changed...and that is sad. They need to stop their show and focus on their marriage, family, children - there are 8 kids that will be affected by this.

2) Tabloid/Paparazzi



And this is why things like the J&K controversy become more than they should. Really - get a better a job, do you have nothing better to do then stalk on celebs and write junk about them. Do you feel good about yourself when you do? It's really sad how far things can go when it comes to the stalkerazzi and tabloids. I feel like those in this field lack some form of human emotion. Even I, a simple stay at home wife and mom who is not a celeb find it sad the extremes that these "professionals" go to. :(

3) Terrible Drivers/Road Rage/Driving Ignorance



Case in point: Yesterday Drew and I are headed home. We decide to cut through a little side street in a strip mall. There are OBVIOUS signs for those not coming of the main road that say "In coming traffic does not stop." We get through the light and proceed. Car one stops a full car length in a half PAST the stop sign. We honk, as we have the right away and rather than at that point just going, he stops in the middle of the road. Literally, right after this guy goes another car, who has witnessed the whole thing does the same thing. And has the audacity to FLIP US OFF....um hello genius...we are not at fault - you are! Seriously, it makes me not want to drive, the lack of courtesy, lack of following the road rules and general "duh" things that come along with driving. Like duh - big red octagon shape with STOP written on it is probably a sign that means STOP. Or DUH, turn signals when attempting to switch lanes and someone is behind you - a good thought. Flipping us off for following traffic rules - ugh. Really...get a life!

4) My Husband's Car



Sorry hunny, but I am so over the every other week break downs. Ok, so maybe it hasn't been every other week - but oh my word it feels like it. And what makes it worse, we have put a lot into to get all these things fixed and it CONTINUES to do the exact shame thing...stall and break down. Then when a mechanic get is "nothing shows up" or we get something fixed, it's fine for a couple of days and then doing the same thing. I am so ready to take the stupid thing and just let someone hit it so we can just get a new car. And when we get a new one - we won't make the mistake of getting one that does not have a warranty and i will be a part of the decision more than I was.

5) Shows I like being cancelled/ending



Stop the madness and just bring back Eli Stone, Pushing Dasies and ER and no one will get hurt. I also am not happy that Samantha Who has been cancelled and The Class- I loved that show.

6) The JumpArounds



Could they be any more annoying? Oh man, and cheesy, so cheesy. Ugh...

7) Being Told My Son is Tiny

Ok, I get it some - he's a little guy and almost walking...but after hearing so much over vacation, I just can't deal with it anymore. I feel like putting a sign on his head that says, "Yes, I am a preemie and tiny...move along." I don't know what else to do. It normally requires an explanation of why and even that gets annoying. But see the thing is...he isn't tiny...tiny is his 2lb 3oz body that could be in both my hands and that's it. Tiny is a 1 pound miracle from God. Sure he's small, but when you see someone really heavy you don't go, "oh my gosh, so big." Or at least you shouldn't.

8) My Son teething/moving/hitting his head

I was not at all prepared for this part of being a mom - toddler stage. I realize it's all part of growing up, but after about bump 5, I am just done with it. Sigh, yet, I love it, I love that he is so interactive and silly and tries new things. I just wish I had some bubble wrap sometimes.

9) Being Over Weight

I have terrible self image and I am trying to lose some weight...but it's hard and i get frustrated with myself. Help! I can't help my coke addiction - kidding!

10) My Apartment

Ok so not the apartment it's self, but the general cluttered and unorganized-ness, non matching picture frames, white walls, our tropical bathroom set (why did I register for that?!), not having patio furniture, needing to plant flower, ect. I just want it to feel more like home and less like an apartment, ya know?



And Now It is your turn:

pick from the following prompts:

The Prompts:

1.) Share a love letter.

2.) Memorial Day Weekend plans?? Do share!

3.) List ten things you are currently sick of.

4.) Put an outfit together using pictures you found online and show us what you'd LIKE to be wearing today.

5.) What have you been too busy to pay attention to.

Write your entry and then head back to Mama Kat's site and leave a mr. linky there so others can read your Writer's Workshop Entry!

Plastic Surgery For Me?!

Before I go any further, I would like to note that this entry is about plastic surgery thoughts and female stuff. So if you are of the male persuasion, I suggest that you stop reading here....lest you be red in the face. Also, another friendly warning, this is a hard subject for me to share, but I am doing it for support and prayers.
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2.) Is plastic surgery an option? Without being vulgar, write about the body part still attached to you that you would most like to dis-attach and replace with a better one.
(writingfix.com)



Ok, are all the men gone? Good! I want to share my thoughts on plastic surgery with all of you. alrighty, here goes:

I am going to be flat out honest here - I HATE MY CHEST. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. I do my best to enjoy what God has felt the need to endow me with, but quite honestly, the enjoyment almost always is non-existent. It's really hard to describe to you the pain I feel due to the largeness of my chest. I am not the skinniest person, I have a little extra weight on my body, but by no means do my "girls" match the size of my body. They are much larger than someone my age, height, and weight should be carrying around. They have always been larger than I feel they should be and I am horribly embarrassed by them a lot of the times. I really struggle with self image anyways and then add in there the large chest, it makes it hard for me to enjoy things completely.

When it comes to plastic surgery, I really don't like it when one does it to just do it. I will never understand why people go in to get a larger chest (maybe that's because of the size of mine) or a facelift or other types of implants. I think for medical purposes (i.e. breast reduction, help after an accident, ect.) it is ok. I myself have always considered breast reduction. My back is in constant pain and my chest just makes it hurt. I wanted to wait, though, until I had children because I had planned on breast feeding. Now though, with the struggle I had with even producing milk and not knowing if I want any more biological children, I am seriously considering having a reduction done. I really feel that if I did, I would be able to enjoy Parker more, life more, myself more.

I am prayerfully considering pursuing this within the next 6 - 12 months. I want to make sure that if I do decide to pursue a reduction, I am doing it for the right reasons. I want to be at total peace about it and as it stands, right now, I am not, I think mainly because I don't have all the details about it and I am scared of having surgery. I keep thinking about what happened with Parker and having to be on a vent and the pain and such and I think those thoughts and fears are really putting a damper on my desire to have a surgery that I believe would help with my quality of life. I also want to make sure that insurance would cover it, that I research this desire enough that I don't get into any trouble.

This would be a huge step for me if I was able to follow through with it, but I don't want to rush into anything. As far as I am concerned, plastic surgery for medical purposes is an option for me, but for recreation purposes, not so much. I have no issues with my face, or the rest of my body (though I would love to lose weight.)


Your turn! Head over to MamaKat's site for all the prompts for her writer's workshop this week. Pick your poison, write up a blog entry and then go back to her site and leave your name and that post under Mr. Linky!

The Inspiration is stuck inside - help!

Hello Friends,

I have a lot in my head today, yet am stuck as to what I write. I thought I would write more about mommy guilt and giving myself a hard time, but changed my mind. I don’t want to bog down my blog with that right now.
Instead I decided I wanted to share something with you that frustrates me. There are days I just absolutely do not like living in an apartment. It really has nothing to do with the apartment community or neighbors (although, I could explain why slamming a door in the middle of the evening is annoying!) It’s the fact that it’s not a house and specific things that go along with that truth.

I realize right now we cannot afford a house and I am ok with that. What frustrates me most is that my apartment is a mess of random! In the living room/dining room alone there are 4 different colors of wood. Nothing really goes together and I feel stuck when it comes to decorating and organization. I want to paint and I realize I can, but I also know I would have to paint over what I paint when we move out and I don’t want to have to do that.

I don’t know where to begin when it comes to decorating an apartment or how to organize. I know I want to do creative things. I would love to make a corkboard with cloth over as not only something practical, but also something decorative to bring color in. I want this place to look put together and cute and I want things to match and I don’t want to be ashamed of it anymore.
It’s like, I have all these thoughts and ideas in my head, but don’t know how to get them out and make them reality. (Not to mention, I don’t have the money to go nuts over this either!) I know one thing I love is that I use a cute bench that is supposed to be for blanket storage as toy storage so when I am able to pick up Parker’s toys, I can hide them. I feel lost from there.

So here is my question for you…when you lived in an apartment, how did you make it look nice and organized? And what things in your home are not only practical but also add a punch of color and décor? I need some inspiration, I am feeling very stuck!

Writer's Workshop: Losing my mind!

Top Ten Things Swirling in my Head:

1) Where is my W2? I called my former boss in January to make sure she had my new addressed. She faxed payroll and yet no W2...now I get to wait for payroll to call...this stinks.

2) Why are people so mean? I am the follower of an amazing blog that for whatever reason is coming under scrutiny by people. Questioning this family's motives and being REALLY rude in the process.

3) When is this dang cold, snow and ice going to go away? I am SICK of it.

4) When will Parker finally sit up on his own, without some support? He does well for 10 seconds and then falls.

5) When can I get more money to go out and buy a couple of things at the flower factory? I want to get a new thing to hang on our front door...a welcome sign, but I need money first.

6) Weird dreams - I keep having very weird dreams. Tuesday night I had one where I was dating Michael Phelps and attempting to help him break his pot habit...he went psycho and tried to kidnap me while my friends (the seeds) took Parker. And then last night, I had one where I was in cambodia and wanted to go see the orphanage, but I was there for a safari and then some army guy tried to shoot me, but shot himself. It was really weird. I think I need some mental help or something.

7) Mommy Guilt - I am enjoying my book (not the side of my blog!) and I am learning a lot as I do read this book. Yet, I still feel guilty!

8) Toddler Room Stuff - I am developing structure and curriculum for the toddler room at church (and LOVING it) but am struggling with the lesson telling. I was planning to just do it the way I had seen at a Ministry conference workshop, but the more I think about it, the less I like that idea and want to do a puppet. Like a bear - Bobby Bear from the Vista Mountains. Have him help tell each weeks lesson, I think the kids would get a kick out of it and want to listen more. I just have to figure it out and see what my hire-ups think ( ore or less, do they think it would work!) I really like the idea!

9) Pregnancy - I want more kids, I do, but I am terrified of having the same issues I did the last time. At this point, I have zero desire to be pregnant again, but I keep thinking what if I get pregnant even though I am doing everything not to get pregnant. How would I handle that. I seriously don't think I would be happy about it at first. But then again, I shouldn't worry about it at all. Me and my worrying.

10) Valentines Day - Where should Drew and I eat? What should I get him? Why do we celebrate this holiday anyway? And for that matter, why do we celebrate Groundhog's Day? It's not like they have super powers or anything. And when is it Christmas again?

Your Turn, below are the prompts, choose one, or two, or all, writer up your post and head over to Mama Kat's Blog and leave your name under Mr. Linky!

The Prompts:

1.) Tell us about a lie you told that you later regretted.

2.) Choose a task you'd like someone to complete and write a poem asking them to do it.
3.) Describe a talent you have.

4.) Write a list of ten things on your mind this week.


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If this is fat...

If this is fat....than I must be gianormous! I mean, I this certainly isn't the most flattering look on Ms. Simpson, but she is NOT fat...and if she is....than I must be super fat!

This is why media ticks me off....because apparently to be healthy and skinny you must be a size: 0 I hate to tell you this, but size 0 isn't what I strive to be. I would certainly like to be healthier...maybe a size 12 or 14 (because isn't that the average size of a woman?

I am just so saddened at how media is. I feel bad for Jessica Simpson.

Annual Womanly Exam, Neighbors

First of all, hello friend, hope you are all well!

Went to my fun womanly exam today. I hate them, I feel so invaded. I have gained a lot of weight since my post partum visit. Sigh...I need to lose at least 30 lbs. I already I knew i needed to lose weight, just didn't know how bad it was. I don't even know where to begin...fresh fruits and veggies, I can do that...more lean proteins - check. No more soda....ahhhhh....no more fast food...ahhhh. I can do it! I will do, I want to do it.

I got home about 3:15, came upstairs put parker down in bed and headed back out to my car to get the stuff in it. I get out there and my neighbor has their mini van parked beside me, they pulled in the space next me and didn't bother to straighten up or anything...just left their can parked in a very nice diagonal. Of course, their van is longer than my car...so their back bumper is my spot pretty much and I have about an inch separation between the two...basically when I back out I am going to have to attempt to back out at a slant...my car is perfectly straight. I mean, seriously....people, get a clue, you dont PARK like that. I have to leave tonight at 7 for a play group thing....so I pray they have moved by then, if not...I'm going to get angry. I just don't know who the van belongs too...so I am praying that they may pay attention and see me leaving.

Sigh, people, come on!

Ok...well I am off to make parker some carrots (yay for making my own baby food!) and to clean up the house...have a good one.