Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving, I am so Thankful!

I got this at LolCats!

(I apologize ahead of time for my horrible grammer and punctuation...I was writing this through tears of joy and a very messy mind of clutter!)

Well friends, first of all, I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving and that you have a ton to be thankful for!

As for me, I am so thankful for so many things this year.

1) First, that my son, while born early, is healthy and happy and home and handsome and perfect and mine, all mine! I will never fully understand (and I may never fully accept!) why my pregnancy ended so suddenly and why my son was born 11 weeks early. But when I hold him and he smiles at me, it doesn't matter. He is the most amazing thing ever, he has seriously changed my life, for the best. Through out the 69 days in the hospital, I don't know how many times I lost it, but looking at that amazing face, those beautiful blue eyes and eyelashes that go on for a million miles, it didn't matter. To think that God created that little man, inside me and gives me the daily strength to love him and be the best mommy I can be. Even if I am down, or upset or frustrated or just need an hour away. Parker is my light, my life, my love and I can't wait to see what this next year has in store!
2) For my husband, who was there for me in May, spent every night in my room, spent countless hours loving on Parker when I couldn't, held my hand when I would cry, loved me unconditionally and reminds me everyday I am worth it and beautiful. Sure we may fight, or get frustrated, but at the end of the day, I always know I can count on him. He never lets me down (well not on purpose) and he just makes me so happy. Thank you baby for loving me!
3) For having a Savior and heavenly Father who are always there for me and even when I may be upset and get mad, I know they love me, no strings attached. My faith has grown a ton this year and I have learned to rely on him. I am learning that he will take care of me and honestly, I am so sad that it took me 25 years to get to this point! But I am thankful that God never gives up on me.
4) For a church family who means the world to me. Those in my life group who have helped me and encouraged me. For those who provided me with food during the recoop. time after my c-section, rides to and from the hospital. To the food provided during the first two weeks Parker was home and I was losing my mind. For those who love me, no strings attached and who make me feel special. I can't even begin to express how fortunate I am to be in a church that makes me so happy. I can wake up in the worst mood, not even want to go to church, and by the time I am half way to the nursery, I am so happy. I just love my church, my church family and how much I feel loved and cared for.
5) I am thankful for my family, even if we don't always get along. I am loved tremendously and that is more important. I am thankful for my parents, grandparents and my siblings.
6) I am thankful for all my friends....every one of them. Each one holds a special place in my heart, and I love all of our inside jokes. I am thankful for my friend Jennielle who is hosting Thanksgiving tomorrow!
7) I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, food in the fridge (ok, well, what little is in there that is!), clothes to wear, warmth!
8) I am thankful for the connections I have made through the blogging world. I have some friends that I am glad I met. I am glad and thankful that I can be a testimony in many preemie parent lives.
9) I am BEYOND thankful and grateful for the doctors, nurses, and staff that have helped me with my pregnancy, birth and after that. My OBGYN, is amazing and I am glad that I found Dr. M, she is awesome. I am so thankful for the NICU staff that loved on my baby and helped him out those 69 days. There are many nurses there that I will always have a life long connection with and that I will love dearly. To our primary nurse, Angela, you may not read this, but thank you, For the countless hours you listened to me, hugged me and let me cry and for loving Parker as your own. To other nurses, M, D, K, C, P - thank you. Thank you for those of you who were there when I made the VERY tough decision to not pump anymore and to being there when I was scared! To the doctors who helped parker in the nicu, thank you! To Dr. D our ped. THANK YOU for understanding that I am a nervous mommy and never making me feel stupid! You all have seriously touched our lives and I look forward to PArker getting to know you all! To Nurse Mary, who held my hand as I lay on the operating table and who said the words I will never forget before my c-section, thank you! You're words comforted me!
10) I am just so thankful.

Would you believe that I am currently bawling? You know, I never wish on anyone the scary experience Parker's birth was, but I am thankful for it (as I said above.) I am so scared it will happen again, but thankfully, right now, i don't need to worry about it! It's so funny how God teaches you, ya know? I am deeply thankful this year for so many things and while it took something as scary as Parker's birth, I will never allow myself to not appreciate it.

God, thank you for all you have taught me this year! You amaze me! - Amen -


Marla Taviano said...

What a beautiful post, Denise! Happy Thanksgiving to all three of you!!

Ali said...

I am so thankful for you! Love you and your family.